now a time to actually step out and face the evil…
i miss it so much… they say that money is the root of all evil but
to me it is nonsense to say so. with out the green i wanna see how they give excuses…. 7 days…… now that u have see the 7days which mean after u had read this lame blog, u only have 7 days to stay alive unless u leave any bad o good comment here in order to keep you alive…. thanks….
in june, i went to kl n meet my gf, a long weeks.. n filled with excitment, the most exciting things which we did was buy 3 packet of jing zhen gu~ a small kind of mush room…which we like to eat…. well thats it? NO~~~!@@!!! things happen now….why we buy that? coz we plan to go eat porridge steamboat on that particular night n intent to do sth illegal…..
that is bring outside food inside (jing zhen gu)… ok since we bot liao, how we gonna prepare before getting in, so, we went to sungai wang where a 2 dollar shop there to hunt for a blade, then bring to a corner where no body guarding and "slice"…and "chop"…
we cut off the packaging n cut of the roots……. then toss the remaining into some pots over there… *ahem* i did the last part… after that, we slowly rush out n pretent nth happen… once step out,,, we felt a little bit of the sense of victory and hyper…. lol
then we walked to time square, the mission then was to wash the mushroom… so we go up to the 13th floor toilet , where quite dessert n bring out the thing n wash…. walao…all drop into the sink ah but nvm, still wash n put into plastic bag…….then came a security ….. then i was stun same as my gf… i dunno why i scare … or maybe we jus done sth bad eh lol…..
but in the end the security did not noticed at all… lol ……
it was a lucky day… during the dinner……at the seamboat….. we are not happy tat they arrage us to sit in front of the counter as we wanna do sth dirty….. lol
however, we still able to make it…. few times nearly been caught… close but no cigar… lol
well we had a nice time anyhow…. i like it
why ppl beside you who care you the most will always be the one who annoy you the most? and easily rose up quarrel the most as well?
does anyone know?
just like mum, dad… im sure most of the kids nowadays will dislike strict supervision, constant lecture or too many "rules" to be set up just for their own son and daugthers’ good, which people always take these care as granted….. we will always talk back or feeling annoying coz we do not like to be criticize of our mistake…. apparenly that most of us are win-face…. we hate to be a loser even tou we r loser as we like to deny that we are wrong, and hence, it will trigger anger within our self and start to argue to win. however, if we stay calm and analyse clearly, all the anoyance and arguing are actually LOVES….
an internal love that we will hardly feel it into our heart if we did not stay calm and think to find out. in fact, this "invisible love" is very strong and powerful if you know how to deal with and cherish it. but most of the time, you will only feel this love when it is in too late situation, when you are growing untill when you have lost something or someone that "annoy" you the most as they left behind memories, valuable lesson, caring and annoyance to you that will deeply sink into your mind. you feel it when you are alone and lonely… you feel it when you are in trouble or in regret or u probably lost the usual life of being scolded, criticize and lectured and you finally started to realised!!!!! and you miss him or her alot!!!!!
… unless you really a person that born without heart, or too tough or stubborn, then you will never feel it.. eveytime we can see couple hugging, petting , having sweet talk or kissing around, those are part of love, an external love which we can easily see and feel the most, esp in the movie, as we like to see thing in strait and clear, most of the human dislike thing too complicated to be treated, they like easy n fast… what iam talking about is something that physical and phycological…
i, recently hate myself when i recall of all the mistake which i have done and gone tru all these months to my dear. like all the insensitive guy out there, iam jus normal and like simple thing, want everything in perfect and enjoy life as usual…. however, then your life chain has been broken and has receive lecture or critism from her, quarrel always rose up by me…i dun feel like listening to every word she say until the phone was ended in silence and for a couple of hours, my stupid brains started to function and realise she actually point out all my mistakes and failure that have been hinding behind me which i never realise.. a deep consoderation and recall back, i started to feel bad. feel sorry to treat her that way again n again…because previously our quarrel always been settled half-ass and the nex day we treated as nth happen… we love each other…. and wish nth serious would have had happened, hence we din talk much….. well, frankly, not a good solution to it….
i feel proud to have a dear who is so strait at pointing out my mistake all the time……she no give face to say out … coz she has nth to hide to me and all she need is to let me know wat am i n wat she thk in strait and what she wants me to learn and change to get rid of the bad habit..everything she said is logical.. i believe most ppl will not accpet this method of pointing however, strait to the point is her strenght and as well as her weakness. strenght is her braveness to tell, to tell everything that strait from her and what she thinks, weakness is easily hurt someone, to hurt someone from words, to sting you with words and make u feel humiliating, n u might tot she or him was insulting you.
to see it in a different angle, The more im with her, the more i learn, the more mistake i made, the more i learn and the more she quarrel with me the more love we create. iam so touched that she still support and got patience to me tou i hurt her so many time…, i would like to thank her for letting me grow up my mind just to be with her!!!! i love her so much and i wish to be more mature in way of thinking.. it was a great gift from her to me….iam very regret for what i have done to her and hope i will gradually change and not always dissapoint you in the future…
to change urself to be a better person is hard, however to change urself to a dark side it is easy… every good thing is hard to achieve… if u can achieve it, you are the winner of all…i gonna prove myself…iam sure time will change and cure everything….(some say that if a person who can changer you and teach you to be a better person, you will never ever forget him or her as they will always remain in your heart esp when they are gone as you are applying their system and guildance to make your life better and made it into a habit)…
do cherish the ppl beside you who care and annoy you the most now!!!!!!!…. know wat they want and and try to find out the answer within them and find out why they will say so, i know it is hard, but u need to find a key to open up your heart 1st, that is calm, patience and understanding….accept all comments from others ……………..before you talk, thk about urself 1st! dont let them go away from you!!!
dedicated to all my friends and to my loves one…
i wonder, why the word "mistake" and "accident" will exist in our life circle.
the 2 words are actually interelated, they are connected! if no mistake, how accident will be caused? if one accidentally done someting wrong how mistake will not emerge? if both these matters had already happened or committed, what will it turn up in the end? anyone know? it is "regrets"!
how many of us have ever been in such situation in the age of 18 and above? and what you wish to do when u r in such situation>? and do u thk we still be able to turn back to the time and alter the mistakes which we had done? i hope i can.
every human make mistakes. there are several kind of people, one is wat we call, "daredevil" or u can say "jerk" who make mistake tru out their life, they commit again n again and nvr feel sorry for anyone, instead, they feel proud and cool.
the second type is once they made mistake, they know and and will feel sorry and correct themselve imediately. somehow, not all the people will remain clean after some time has passed, they will re creative the same mistake again.
to be continue“““`
long long time ago a little girl called gwen was born and started to live day by day year by year, used to be an ugly duckling, have u heard about such story? lol
well then she went tru a happy moment, when the time is changing, this ugly duckling also change following the time, getting prettier n prettier, n getting more cute and articulate that attract everyone’s attention. born with a loud voice, she likes to BS around her close frends esp boys.
throught out her relationship, there were many many boys adore her n one by one, were kicked out n out, 1,2 ,3 ,4 of coz, some were serious some were not. gwen very very serious when come to relationship thing, esp love and frendship, all the way, she was searching for her true love untill one day, she met nick, a guy whom she though very caring and pamper her that made her heart meltand touched.
they knew each other for quite sometime before they started to get along together. from the eye of other ppl see, this couple is the best couple ever since coz they are really caring each other and loving each other. gwen though she had found her true love, and so did nick, they been together n live tru many hardship, happiness and sadness. quarrel and sweetness have been happening all the way untill one day, nick has no choice but to follow his family to other country and settle down there.
such problem never influnce this couple as when gwen really in love, she doent even care about anything n so did nick. all they know is, they love each other and trust each other. since then, nick flew away from gwen, let gwen alone , both were sad but the only way that they can maintain their communication n feel is tru chatting and calling, or even write letter. however, nick would cm bk every year to accompany gwen.
when gwen and nick are together, they are always preacious the time and stick together as if the world is going to the end. they did a lot of thing tat romantic, playful, nasty, childish together, time to time, both family memnbers know each other and their love has open up to let people know. and many ppl love them so much….but somehow, nick still have to go bk to his country to further his work as he has his job to do, while gwem has to furether her study here in this small town.
they keep doing the same thing year by year, from 1st year, 2nd year, 3rf year, 4th year…… wow….. what a sweet journey, within this journey, many thing has happen, quarrel, tears, and many types of problem arise, still cannot stop the love of nick n gwen from lovin them.
but in the 5th year, when both were getting to have their own life, thing has changed… maybe the way they think in their mind are getting mature and busy with their own thing which are important. since then less n less communication and spark occur between them. when one day, they started to be cold,,,…. nick is busy for his heavy work and gwen has gone into college life in other part of town. plus the time difference in the different country it is hard to keep contact due to busy and tiredness. when one day, gwen receive a mail from nick, she was so happy n expecting of it, hope it was a sweet mail, but….
thing has changed, nick asking gwen to stay strong and if possible , can find a better guy than him. gwen shock, n said " 5 years…. tats it" she burst into tears and hug one of her frend during in the college library. gwen was very down, but she tried to be strong so she few days later try to cheer up herself and observe her surrounding and look for people who care her as all she need tat time is care and secure.
she search n search…. but fail and fail, and even been tricked and fooled otherwise, relation unstable and last for just a few weeks. untill one day, when she open her mail and see this stange guy call danny mail her n ask silly questions. was going to ignore him but dunno why gwen jus replied to him in the end without any hestitation, usually, gwen will jus ignore. but dunno why, the mail is getting longer n longer each time reply and soon thwey started to msn n calling each other…..
then the story start. she found out tat this danny boy has something in common with her…. tat is their attitude, style and many thing…..the more they chat the more closer they are, and they are in the same town. studying in other town, gwen often fly back to see her parent, then she thought, one day she might fly back n meet danny. she plan a lot, buy a lot of thing to him, dunno why , she blur as well. in her mind, she thk tat is possible, she might gv him a chance to be together with her since she felt comfoertable with danny everythime they chat and danny care her so much, and danny also like gwen so much.
the moment has came! gwen fly back one day, and danny was asked to go to her house and pk up gwen. gosh, the 1st nite they been out. in the car, they were like long lost frend and chat non stop and beat ard like a kid. after some drinks, they went to a park call the fan park to take a stroll… when gwen suddenly thk tat she has fall in love with danny and so did danny, is this love at 1st sign? lol
during gwen stay with danny, she had a wonderful time n so did danny, they did a lot of thing to impress each other, they oso care each other, then b4 gwen left danny, they suddenly and had a long chat, since then they are already a couple…also dealing with long distance, nth can affect them, still the way they contact is nothing different, still try net and calls. sometime danny will fly over to see gwen and so did gwen. they really love each other n gwen say to herself that after with nick, danny is her next bf, a boy who treat her so serious n care her so much among the boys that she came across so far.
she learn tat danny is a boy who very serious in love as well and she did a lot of thing with him tat can build up the relationship between them, there were a lot of memories …. tou it is jus a few months but it seem like years for them. they oso have planning for their future, wether it will appear o not, it is depend on their hardwork n luck. gwen put a lot of effort in this relationship, she wish tat danny would be the only n the last bf tat she will have at this moment, of coz she and danny will face a lot of problem in the future as their family background are different and they do not dare to predict wat will happen in the future.
but gwen always tell danny that, future thing is hard to predict, letz cherish and treasure what we have for now! no matter how love we are, our destiny are all depend on the fate, we must face it oneday no matter how, n she believe that if the relationship is smooth, she would like to settle down with danny together forever…. what would happen in the future? well……… we will se about that….
the story will continue…..
10 or october, my month, day i become alive …
i have been tru 24 times of october all together… seems to be the end of october now, heading for november..
another new life gotta be begun no matter how…. time flies and mind change…
change, what wil it turn to be in the end? who can predict it? and how much will you know about it? is there really a fortune teller that really accurate on making prediction?
r u affraid? to be honest, yes…. i do…. no matter how, u gotta change, people need improvement to strive for success…… who wouldnt? unless one is aimless or live without motivation or sd say, who do not willing to change?…. we have our own reasons to live tru our life, maybe we preacious something ahead of us, or in front of us now or could be passed, tats made us change or remain stagnant, yes tat is the reason.
however, our consequences is hard to predict, will it turn as what we had expected? or sd i say, will it be what u want when u reach to your achivement?
will staying is a bad thing or a good thing to be? how much you want ueself to change to? how much you want ur life to be? what is your level?
or, do you know what you r doing now and what u going to do now? when will u feel regret? hmmmmmmm
life……… who knows???????
darren
the smelly bean curd, in chinese it means "chou tofu" a smelly food. where i was brought to go to a pasar malam in KL somewhere to experince it…. it smell sucks , indeed. however when u really eat it, it is so crunchy and actually tasteless. i ate a lot together with my gf…. love to eat smelly beancurd….it is my 1st time to eat it. i have been wanting to eat it since long time ago coz i always listen to ppl say tat it smells funny and do not dare to try it…. i wanna challenge it…. n prove it tat i can eat it…. it cost rm2 for 4 pieces with chilli sauces…. nice~~~ yumm…. we actually eat 2 round… i wish to eat it again~~ lol
there is a bear travel by air to me last month, she brought me a CD and letter to me and say something to me, wow, what the bear say is so touching, very well plan, and when i browse into the CD i realize that bear had done and arranged a lot of thing for me. i feel over-excited, hyper, and almost gone nuts when i found out what is actually inside the CD. also a letter from her to me….. she is so meaningful to me, so caring, everytime i press her hand, she will tell me the same thing which is sweet. oh my goodness, im in love. she come out with clever planning that let me do thing everyday just to open the CD. a very creative bear, i like it alot coz it is part of my life…. my love, (ling ing wen)…1014 4ever!!!!
u see! everyone got wish and wishes…. what would u want if u were granted to have a wish? to be rich? to be famous? to be clever? to have many chicks? to conquer the world? blah blah blah….
well, my wish tat has been hidden inside my mind for quite sometime n i wanna share out loud now. my wish is cool, i can say tat it is the most powerful or the ultimate wishes of all, to me, *ahem*….
well…. everyone sure got their own superhero with superpower, yes, exactly! i want superpower, a power that i can control the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
imagine if jus a code that uttered from me, i can either stop the time, or reverse the time, or forward the time or even control the speed of the time… wow…. imagine… if i stop the time , everyone will stay still n stiff… wow! all the machineries will temporary malfunction and i can do everything i want without leaving behind any clue, lol!!!! i mean "anything" hahahhahahahha i sure will pass my exam in flying color!!!! i will be top student!!!! imagine if i go see britney spear concert n stop the time…. i went up stage n tk off her all clothes n restart the time! hahahhahahahhahahah!!!
imagine i control the speed of the time, wow, i will be famous, i will be the world fastest runner!!! move faster than bruce lee oso.. hahahahhaha
i wont be affraid if i beat up any dude even george bush! hahhahh coz once i got into trouble, i will say "time reverse"!!!! than the time will reverse untill where i wanna stop! then, i will be innocent again!!! hahahahhahhahahahaha
i feel like a super human time machine hahahahahha so dun u get me pissed o~~~well…
sigh~~~~~~~~~~~bored !!!!! jus a fuking dream…. study hard lah~~~
waseh mid august liao ah?
din realise leh, test test test ass ass ass headache headache headache ei~ poof… so fast ah? again mid august liao ah?
walao eh~
